“Tell those people up in Minnesota ‘I’m really sorry,'” Joe Balzer said to me as I left our meeting at the EAA air show in Oshkosh a few days ago. “I had my worst day,” he said of the day he committed what many, perhaps, believe to be an unforgiveable act. He and two others on the flight crew of a Northwest Airlines flight with 91 people aboard, were drunk when they flew from Fargo to Minneapolis.
He was arrested, convicted, and sent to prison.
Before the flight, he and his crew spent hours in a Moorhead bar, pounding down rum and Cokes and beer.
“That evening I was full of fear,” he said. “I was on probation from Northwest Airlines, things weren’t going well with the crew, we were a little dysfunctional. It was a terrifying event. It was the culmination of the ultimate struggle. A year before I had a blackout in Los Angeles as a pilot for Eastern Airlines. I tried to quit drinking on my own… I didn’t have a support group, I didn’t have a 12-step group, I wasn’t seeking wise counsel from others. My chances of success were not very good.”
Balzer, who’s just released his book, “Flying Drunk”, says he got drunk for the first time when he was three years old, drinking with his grandfather.
The low point of his life was hours after his flight landed in Minneapolis. “There we were in (Northwest Airline’s) headquarters and the results came back and they said, ‘All three of you guys tested positive for alcohol,’ and I thought, ‘This is bad, I’m going to lose my job and I’m going to lose my pilot’s license.’ That night I was stranded in a hotel in Minneapolis and I paced it off in the room. I walked back from the window and I thought, ‘If I get going good I can get through that window and do a swan drive.’ That’s how ashamed I was about what I’d done. I let myself down and I knew that, but I looked at that window and I thought, ‘This isn’t the right thing to do; it’d be very selfish.’ I had a good cry from deep inside and I just decided to accept responsibility and change my life.”
Nineteen years after the incident, and years after prison in Georgia, Balzer rebuilt his aviation ratings. “One day I walked into American Airlines after they saw me speak. I’d been rejected by over a hundred different airlines.” He was hired.
Not all airline pilots have forgiven Balzer. After the arrests and trial in Minneapolis, airline pilots were the target of jokes from late-night comedians. “What matters is I own my part and I’ve made amends to my professional brothers who made a living,” he said. “At the time I thought I was OK to fly and I know today with the clarity of a recovering person… I had no business being near an airplane that morning. Had it happened before? Yes. Does it happen with pilots? Yes. It’s a problem with brain surgeons, and pastors, and school teachers, and everyone. Ninety-eight percent of alcoholics show up and do a job. There will be pilots who will still hold it against me personally and all I can do is say ‘I’m sorry.'”
He’s still flying for the airline and still speaking to people, knowing that there’s probably a drunk in the audience. “The pilot who knows he has a problem is really playing with fire. Alcoholism is a 100-percent fatal disease. It’s very important for pilots who have scared themselves … just like I did out in Los Angeles … if people are having episodes like that and finding themselves with DWIs, they need to get some help,” he said.
One of his messages to airline pilots is seeking help doesn’t have to involve losing a career. He says the FAA, pilots unions, and the airlines have created programs for recovery.
“First they can save their lives. Then they can save their careers,” he said.
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